It’s That Time in the Semester…

Stress hunger.

It’s a thing.

A thing I recently developed last semester.

In the last month or so of last semester, I was always hungry. I was eating at all hours of the day. 3 a.m.? No problem. I was up writing those papers I had Continue reading “It’s That Time in the Semester…”

A Digression (Or Dear Britta, It’s Time to Get Your Shit Together…Again)

Hey you, yeah I’m talking to you. You’re becoming the laziest person I know. How bout you snap out of that right now?

I’m talking about myself, of course.

Since spring break, I have been the laziest. A couple days of productivity here and there. But mostly lazier than lazy. Even writing this post is going to be a struggle. I can already tell. I don’t want to do anything right now. BUT I HAVE Continue reading “A Digression (Or Dear Britta, It’s Time to Get Your Shit Together…Again)”

In Which I Prepare for an Adventurous Spring Break

Hey all,

Just a heads up that I’m heading off for a spring break adventure with two of my college buddies tomorrow…I’m not bringing my computer and I’m going to try my darnedest to stay off social media!

I have some posts scheduled for next week, just because I had the ideas and Continue reading “In Which I Prepare for an Adventurous Spring Break”

Why I’m Going to Make the Most of Finals Week

“Well, that sounds like the stupidest thing I’ve ever heard, Britta… finals week is basically a royal suck fest and the sooner it is over, the better!”

Yes, some of you may very well be questioning the title of this post. I assure you I have good reason for this; please, please, let me explain…

Last night, I was holed up in the library working on my senior seminar paper. In order to make my homeworking a little more bearable, I turned on some instrumental Christmas music on Spotify. I haven’t been listening to a lot of Christmas music this year, and this was really the first time I turned it on since Continue reading “Why I’m Going to Make the Most of Finals Week”

The Reality of Senior Year

The closer it gets to the end of the semester, the more I’ve been blogging.

I’ve posted everyday for the past four days. Seems a little excessive considering that I presented my history senior seminar on Tuesday (which went rather well) and have papers sporadically due up until the last day of finals.

My motivation has been so lackluster lately that I was up until 5 am finishing a paper last night. I easily could have been finished with this paper by midnight or even 11 had I not been distracted for about five hours.

Two years ago, as the over achieving sophomore that I was, I would have been extremely embarrassed by my obvious lack of work ethic. Now? I’m too exhausted and way too over this semester to care. I’m tired of the projects I used to get Continue reading “The Reality of Senior Year”

A Thought About the Road Ahead

I’m the type of person that always needs to have a cause. If I don’t, I get bored, anxious, and get to feeling a little worthless.

This cause doesn’t have to be anything huge (say saving the world). In fact, I get more personal satisfaction out of small things that make a difference.

I hope to find a lifelong cause in a future career. Lately, I have been intent on finding that cause well, yesterday. Problem is, I have no idea what I want to do after I graduate. This has been making me rather on edge because I so desperately need to feel like I’m doing something worthwhile or my anxiety spikes; I’m terribly frightened that I’ll go home after I graduate and sit on my bum for the rest of my life. Of course, knowing me, I wont let that happen. It’s still a fear that I have (irrational fears are all too real in Britta Land).

Today, I realized that maybe my current cause should simply be figuring out who I am.

I don’t need to have my future figured out. I can’t figure out my future until I allow Continue reading “A Thought About the Road Ahead”

Senior Seminar Freak Out Sesh *Breathe Britta, Breathe*

Tomorrow at this time I will be anxiously waiting to present my history senior seminar.

I will be anxiously sitting through three of my classmates’ presentations before I’m up to go.

I will be hoping, hoping, hoping that it all goes well (considering that my practice presentation was absolute shit).

I’m not going to lie, I’m getting nervous for this. Partly because I can’t just go first and get it over with. Since all five of my classmates and I present one after the other, someone has to go first, someone has to go last, and inevitably there has to be a few people in the middle. If it were up to me, I’d be up first because I tend to get more nervous when I have to sit around and wait. However, my professor decided to order presentations chronologically throughout history (as this is the history senior seminar, that makes perfect sense) and “A Man on the Fringes: Montgomery Blair and the Coming of the Civil War” fell right smack dab in the middle of that chronology.

I’m also nervous because I did mess up so badly during my practice presentation.  Granted, I wasn’t prepared and still didn’t even really know what Continue reading “Senior Seminar Freak Out Sesh *Breathe Britta, Breathe*”