This is a Post Where I Make Important Realizations About Myself. That is All.

Today is a day of clarity.

Let me tell you why.

These last few weeks have been…strange. Strange in a way that I haven’t really been able to put into words. I was very aware of feeling off, but I didn’t really know how to describe it to anyone–let alone, myself–so I didn’t. I wasn’t ignoring the feeling, per se. I was more confused than anything. Being in a new town, in a new job, in a completely different country–it is all so much, and processing everything has been really hard. Unable to describe my own feelings but yearning to write, I turned to fiction to soothe my nerves…yet, I was still on edge…because although nothing was seriously wrong, I still didn’t know how to describe all these feelings going on inside of me.

But…I think I can now. After a much needed weekend to myself (seriously, I’ve done next to nothing, and it’s been amazing), I feel like I have the space to distance myself from these emotions and really consider them.

Let me explain:

Being in Chiang Mai during my October TESOL course was easily one of the highest emotional periods of my life. The amount of joy and happiness I experienced during October 2015–for such a consecutive period of time–was simply unheard of for me before that. It’s not that I was unhappy before my TESOL course. It’s not that life was terrible before TESOL. In fact, it was the exact opposite. My last year of college was an amazing period of personal growth. My last semester of college, specifically, was easily my best semester of college. A period of my life that I will always cherish. This past summer, working as an espresso bar barista at a gas station, of all places, was also an incredible experience for me. I pushed myself in new ways by working in the food service industry, and I can safely say that some of my coworkers fundamentally shaped me into the person I am today (and that is looking back to three months ago). I loved my job as a barista and will always cherish the, albeit temporary, home I Continue reading “This is a Post Where I Make Important Realizations About Myself. That is All.”

INTROVERTS ARE PEOPLE, TOO!

Here I will relate a conversation I had with an acquaintance a person I barely know at a bar last night:

Person I Barely Know: “Wasn’t expecting to see you here tonight, Rebecca.”

Me: “My name’s not Rebecca.”

P.I.B.K.: “Becca?”

Me: “No…”

P.I.B.K.: Clearly struggling to remember my name, clearly has no idea Continue reading “INTROVERTS ARE PEOPLE, TOO!”

“If an INFJ Loves You, They Will Never Give Up on You”

Truer words have never been spoken (or, in this case,  written).

Today, instead of doing homework, I somehow ended up taking a personality test and then finding this fantastic Prezi about INFJs:

Care and Feeding of INFJs

Even though history is my first passion and being a nerdy English major is my second passion, I have always found personality tests fascinating. Perhaps because I am in introvert who is always felt a little misunderstood in this world, probing into the way other people function just makes sense to me (that sounds like such an INFJ thing to say).INFJ for the most part. Super touchy feely intuition goes out the window for me though so a slight tendency toward INTJ.  Introvert 22%, iNtuitive 22%, Feeling/(Thinking) 12%, Judging 44%  Go take the personality test: http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

I’ve taken the Myers-Briggs test a few times before and I have tested as both an INFJ and an ISFJ. I  identify strongly with introversion (I), feeling (F), and judgement (J), but intuition (N) is my weakest point, which explains the shift between S (sensing) and N. However, I believe I am more of an INFJ than anything, and the above Prezi  made that abundantly clear for me. Furthermore, I believe I have come to understand just how intuitive I am within the last year or two. A year ago, I probably would have identified more with Continue reading ““If an INFJ Loves You, They Will Never Give Up on You””