2016: A Reflection

2016, I have decided, will be a year of confidence, of poise, of adventure. It will be putting myself out there in more ways while also continuing to nurture the introvert inside of me. It will be sticking up for myself and chasing after my dreams. It will be blossoming even further into the strong, independent woman I know is inside of me. It will be having faith in my decisions, not doubting what my heart tells me.

 January 3, 2016

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 2016 was a year. On a global scale, many would agree that it sucked.

On a personal level, it sometimes sucked, but it was mostly quite full. If 2015 was the best year of my life thus far (as I’m pretty sure I dubbed it at its close), 2016 has been the most enriching. In many respects, it was a very painful year—particularly in its early months. 2016 was completely losing all sense of self while simultaneously trying my best to live in a foreign country and culture. It was being alone in Thailand on my birthday, with head lice and pneumonia in tow—at the same time. It was striking out independently in search of my place in this world and feeling a lot of uncertainty, anxiety, and doubt along the way.

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It was also leaving these cuties and the joy of teaching them (on the rare occasions when they wanted to be taught) behind, unsuccessfully holding back tears as I left their classrooms for the last time, because the love, kindness, and intellect of children is grossly undervalued and because they taught me so much.

That said, 2016 did have its bright spots: traveling in Europe with an old high school friend; showing my parents around the beautiful country I called home for six months; having no clue what the heck to do with my life post-Thailand, but trusting my gut in Continue reading “2016: A Reflection”

New Year, New Outlook

With a new year comes new goals and a new outlook.

I’ve been reflecting a lot lately about how I’ve been living my life up until now and the changes I can make to ensure I live a fuller and more enriching life.

With this reflection, I’ve realized two things:

  1. I expect way too much in life. Those expectation keep me from living in the moment and being thankful for what I have.
  2. I am very confident in myself, but I don’t trust that confidence in situations that are outside my comfort zone.

I’m realizing more than ever in this new country where I am far away from my family and Continue reading “New Year, New Outlook”

Choosing Growth

When you have demons, I’ve learned it’s best to just confront them. Confrontation is the often first step in moving forward.

Helping yourself. That’s where true confidence comes from. Helping yourself starts from within. Often times, that first step comes in the form of confronting your demons.

Not that that’s an easy task. Such a task can be damn hard. But in my short twenty-two years of experience with this thing called life, it has always seemed to Continue reading “Choosing Growth”

Musings and Such (Sunset Included)

So, remember the other day when I said I took some sunset photos, but they didn’t turn out?

WELL, I LIED!

Okay, the actual story is that I had edited them a bit and was really not confident with those edits. I didn’t think they were good enough. I mean, who am I? A PHOTOGRAPHER? I’ve heard about the rule of thirds before, but that’s basically my limited knowledge of this photography business.

I’m just a girl taking photos of the prairie on her phone and I also have really high standards for what a good photo should look like. So, naturally, I put an ungodly Continue reading “Musings and Such (Sunset Included)”