Early November 2016

Lately, every time I sit down to write a blog post, nothing makes enough sense to put it into words. Or maybe it all makes perfect sense and I just think too much. I’m not sure.

I always want to be writing, but I have no words; I only recently started to understand that maybe that’s okay.

My life is full of so many emotions and ideas and experiences right now and I understand none of it.

One of the main reasons I use writing–and  one of the main reasons I started blogging–is to makes sense of it all. To process and better understand this crazy, complicated, confusing life.

However, I’ve been realizing more and more lately that maybe it doesn’t have to make sense.

Maybe I should just let it happen and see what happens and enjoy the ride.

I’m not done blogging and I’m certainly not done writing.

There is just no room for pondering why right now.

I just want to live instead.

Blogging Thoughts: May 2016 Edition

The other day, my blog had a total of one view.

Now, this view–it wasn’t even from a recent post. It was from a really old post, back from when my blog was a baby. For some reason–probably because it shows up in web searches regarding the ever-popular topic of Myers-Briggs personality types–this post continues to get a lot of traffic, despite its age.

Anyways, that’s besides the point.

The point is, my blog got one view the other day and, more importantly, my reaction to this was:

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Every now and again, I like to revisit my reasons for blogging. While I did this a lot more at the beginning of my journey as a blogger–writing numerous posts in the first few months of this blog’s existence on that topic–it’s still something that crops up in the back of my mind now and then.

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So, about this blogging business–lately, my stats have been terrible. Let me say that again. In the past few months, my blog stats have slowly petered down to almost non-existent. While I was never garnering a huge amount of views on my blog, my stats have really been terrible of late. T-E-R-R-I-B-L-E.  The number of likes and comments I’ve been receiving have been dismal. My followers are growing steadily, but I also know that the majority of those followers don’t even read my blog.

While I would have found all this exceptionally aggravating in the past, though, I’m finding now that I really don’t care. Part of me does wish my stats would pick up. It’s always nice to see the numbers get a little higher on any particular Continue reading “Blogging Thoughts: May 2016 Edition”

#Weekend Coffee Share–Keeping Busy, Looking to the Future

If we were having coffee, I’d start off with asking how YOU are, since it’s been so long since I’ve joined the coffee share. I’d pry a little bit into your life and we might exchange a hug, if you’re the type of person who likes to exchange hugs.

If we were having coffee, I’d talk about how good it feels to be home, how I miss Thailand dearly, but how I know I made the right choice in coming back to the States earlier than anticipated. I’ve spent the last few weeks spending time with family and friends and catching up on some much needed sleep, which was very much lacking in my life during the month that I was traveling in Europe and Thailand.

If we were having coffee, I’d talking about how I’ve spent much of this week checking job postings and writing cover letters and updating my resume. It’s been nice to have this time back at home with my family. It’s been nice to relax and not having to worry about much in terms of responsibility…but I’d also talk about how ready I am to move on with my life. Continue reading “#Weekend Coffee Share–Keeping Busy, Looking to the Future”

#BeReal – BRITTA BUCHANAN

Back in February, Hasty asked me to write up a post about what it means to Be Real for her blog. This the result.

I’m currently back home in the U.S., taking some time off from the blogosphere to recharge and catch up with people in real life…but I’ll hopefully get back to posting soon!

In the mean time, I invite you to hop over to Hasty’s blog to check out my guest post and perhaps peruse around the rest of her site while you’re there.

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My #BeReal guest today is Britta Buchanan.

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What does it mean to #bereal?

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately, in the context of how I perceive myself and in the context of how others perceive me. As I write this, I am wrapping up one semester of teaching English in Thailand with the intention of heading back home to the United States after a bit of travel. Six months ago, I would have told you that I’d for sure sign on after another semester in Thailand; the idea of living abroad was still enticing and new at that point and I couldn’t imagine any context where I would want to come home. In fact, back in September, upon my arrival in Thailand, I wrote in my journal that going home would be a step back.

Why go home when there is a world of opportunity to explore…

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My blog has never been about the views or the likes or the follows.

(Well, except for the very early months of blogging on this site after I found the WordPress community. Then, it was. But only for a short time before I realized how unhappy trying to write for other people was making me.)

I created this site for myself. It is my way of expressing myself and quite honestly, it is the best form of therapy I’ve ever had. Writing is my release. It is how I  understand myself better and cope with my fears and anxieties and it is the best way that I’ve found for myself to learn and grow and push myself as a human being in this life that can be so damn hard sometimes.

My life has changed drastically since I started blogging….and I attribute much of that change to the blogging itself. I’ve written about everything. The good and the bad. I’ve learned so much in the process. I’ve met amazing people and their support is unending. I haven’t been the best at checking in with other people’s blogs of late (these things do happen when you decide to live an adventurous life abroad), but I have also loved exploring the work of others in the community and supporting them, as well.

So, the fact that this site just reached 400 followers doesn’t mean as much to me as it would have in those first few months of blogging. That said, it’s still pretty cool. When I first started this site in the waning months of 2014, I never imagined 400 people would find the incentive to click the “follow” button. Granted, not all 400 of those people follow along with me regularly–if at all–but still…it’s amazing to think about how far reaching my words are in this virtual space I’ve created.

With that, thank you to all who continue to read and support It’s a Britta Bottle! I’d still be here if it weren’t for all of you…but it wouldn’t be half as fun.

Culture Shock–In Words

I’ve grown a lot in the past couple years.

I talk about that a lot.

I preach about it, really.

Just last night, new friends of mine were commenting on my maturity for a twenty-two year old and I just said in reply, “Well, I grew up a lot in college.”

And I did. I did grow up a lot in college. I found my confidence and my independence and my strength and college and I am so thankful for that.

But today? Today I am feeling vulnerable.

Today, I am sitting my new apartment in my new town in Thailand. It’s the weekend after my first week of teaching English and I have no plans but to explore my city and get to know the Continue reading “Culture Shock–In Words”

#WeekendCoffeeShare–Back to College (for a Day), Friends Time, and Thailand is Getting Closer!

If we were having coffee, I’d start off out by telling you that this week has been awesome. Truly awesome. I’m down to a week and a half before I leave the country for an indefinite amount of time and I want to make the most of the time I have left here…and I feel like I’ve definitely been doing that this week.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you about how I visited my college town earlier this week for the first time since I left as a new graduate in May. I’d tell you about how wonderful it was to be back and how I practically started crying when I drove up to campus and greeted my friends on the campus mall. There were tears and they were of the best kind. I was so happy to be back. I didn’t realize how much I’d missed campus until I was all the sudden there again. It was so wonderful to spend time with some of my dearest friends and I loved getting to see a bunch of people whom I hadn’t seen in ages. I also ran into my former history adviser and one of my favorite professors on campus, which was wonderful (hm…I’m using the word wonderful a lot in this paragraph. But this visit was so wonderful that my usual attention to variations in word choice while writing is failing me…and I don’t even know how else to describe it). I’m so unbelievably glad I got to go back before I leave for Thailand. This place means so much to me and, given my current sense of wanderlust, adventure, and a general need not be living in Minnesota for at least the time being, it’s quite possible that I wont be back again for…well, years.  Seeing so many people that I know I wont get to see for ages and ages now that I’m Continue reading “#WeekendCoffeeShare–Back to College (for a Day), Friends Time, and Thailand is Getting Closer!”

#WeekendCoffeeShare–Making This Quick ‘Cause It’s Bedtime!

If we were having coffee, I’d start off by saying whew, it’s been another exhausting week. The humidity here has been absolutely insane, which makes for an uncomfortable work environment, what with all the running around I do as a barista (but hey, good practice for Thailand with this humidity, right?). The heat from all the cooking in the kitchen certainly doesn’t help, not mention that the air flow in the gas station itself is absolutely preposterous. So, I’m absolutely spent and am going to try to make this post short and sweet so I can get to bed sooner than later.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that I’ve been relatively absent in the blogosphere this week. I’ve “liked” a few posts but that’s about it. I did read through a few on my phone earlier today after work, but was too tired to interact with any of them. It’s just been an exhausting Continue reading “#WeekendCoffeeShare–Making This Quick ‘Cause It’s Bedtime!”

#WeekendCoffeeShare–Drinks and Work and BLOG CH-CH-CHANGES

If we were having coffee, I’d assure you that, OH MY GAWD, I SWEAR I’M NOT A DRUNK.

The last time I was even remotely tipsy was when I wrote this post.

(I’d also assure you that that post was a hit and blogging drunk is fun)

All my friends are far away and I have no one to drink with but myself. #collegegraduateproblems

(yes, I’m writing this post slightly intoxicated, again)

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If we were having coffeeI discuss how generally boring and uninspiring this week was. At least at work. Seriously. Summer is coming to an end, folks, and that means less people want milkshakes and smoothies. And even though I’ve been making more hot coffee drinks than I Continue reading “#WeekendCoffeeShare–Drinks and Work and BLOG CH-CH-CHANGES”

It’s My (Blog’s) Birthday!

My birthday’s in March, folks…remember? (yeah, it’s okay if you don’t)

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I registered for WordPress in May of 2014.

May 27 to be exact.

That’s when I started the blog that would carry me through my summer as a Smithsonian intern in Washington D.C…

…but that internship only lasted eight weeks. And I hardly thought it was appropriate to carry on a blog entitled “2 Massachusetts Ave., N.E.” (a.k.a the street address of the National Postal Museum) past the summer of 2014.

With the end of my summer, and the blog that went along with it, I found myself asking what I should do next with this blogging business…

See, I had a blog on Blogger, already. I initially decided to try WordPress out for my internship blog because I was curious…some of my Facebook friends were using WordPress for their blogs and I really was just so curious. Admittedly, I toyed with using it for my first blog, but was for some reason a little intimidated by it, which is why I chose Blogger instead. In the weeks leading up to the beginning of my internship, I decided I wanted to make a blog specifically to document my experiences living in D.C. So, given that I was curious about WordPress, I put my intimidation past me and signed up. I soon discovered that this WordPress place seemed pretty Continue reading “It’s My (Blog’s) Birthday!”