Last year, I was diagnosed with an adjustment disorder.
I did not, in fact, have general anxiety like I was anticipating…I just handle change really poorly. Or rather, my body does.
My body can feel that change is in the air. It knows that and it is making my life all the more difficult because of it. It’s not just my emotions, it’s everything.
It’s the fact that my stomach has been a mess for about a week…that I think I’m still hungry, that I want seconds, until I look at the food on my plate and feel ill.
It’s the fact that I just tried to take a nap and couldn’t sleep at all, even though I’m exhausted (it was a 5 am night last night, finishing my paper, and I didn’t sleep well when I finally did get to bed either).
It’s that pit of anxiety that is growing in my stomach that I’m always so aware of.
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This week is going to be hard. Because I want to make the most of it, yet my body wants to have other plans for me.
Luckily, I’ve grown so much in the last year, I’ve learned so much about myself and how to take care of myself. I need to be doing yoga daily, I need to be writing constantly, I need be productive, keep myself busy. I need to be spending time with friends, enjoying every moment I have with them. I have one more paper due this week and a few other important tasks that need to be completed.
So yes, I know how to take care of myself.
And I will.
It’s just going to be extra hard this week.
And I think I just need to accept that.
It's a Britta Bottle! 
When I was about to write, “Hey Britta, do yoga”, there you come with all sorted out!
Hang in there. It’s close to the end. And you know you can. You have it all figured out.
Clap clap clap!
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Thanks so much, Lucile. Yoga has seriously been a life saver this week!
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That’s why I love yoga so much! It’s more than physical activity and really calms the mind.
I’m happy to hear you found time to do it and it helped you!
🙂
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Hey huni, sorry to hear about your wellbeing suffering as a result of anxiety etc. I’m right there with you, it’s tough, really tough in fact – hope you succeed in fighting on through as best you can. It’s all we can do 🙂 Thinking of you! Karen x
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Oh goodness, thank you, Karen. This week hasn’t been as bad as I anticipated when I wrote this post, but it’s still been tough to conquer that anxiety at some points. I so appreciate your support. ❤
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You’re so welcome 🙂 Glad you’ve had a better week than you thought!! XXX
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Sending you the strength to get through this week!
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Thank you, Sabina. ❤
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We’re here for you luv! You can do it, you’re a strong girl. I’m looking forward to seeing what’s next for you x.
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Thanks so much, DesleyJane. I’m excited to see where my future takes me, too, and I can’t wait to share it with all of you. First thing’s first, though–I must graduate tomorrow!
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Best of luck with graduation Britta, it is sure to be an amazing day!
So much fun!!! X
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Sending you good vibes and thoughts this week! 🙂
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Thanks so much, Katy. ❤
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Look at all these wonderful comments from bloggers/friends whose advice is top-notch! By the way, Missy, you need to focus on your last moments of school and lay off the blogging for a couple of days. We love hearing from you, but those butterflies that fuel anxiety do not need more food while you try to write up a blog post. As a lecturer myself, I know what anxiety my students go through (and what my own daughter is going through right now) and they face graduation. I’m very proud of you and am excited for your future!
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Terri, you have no idea how important this comment is to me. I read this at least five times when I first saw it and thought, “gee, that sounds like something my mom or grandma would say to me.” I wrote this post because writing does help with my anxiety and I just needed to get it off my chest. That said, you are completely right–I need to focus more on living in the moment and enjoying making my last few memories of college instead of dwelling on my anxiety. I’ve been trying to do my best with that this week, and this week has been much better than I anticipated when I wrote this post. Thank you so much for this. It was something I needed to read. ❤
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You are a little younger than my daughters so I couldn’t help the maternal instinct. I’m excited for you and your new journey!!
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Sending lots of positive thoughts your way.
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Thank you so much, Erin.
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