Last night, a fellow blogger showed up in one of my dreams.
This is someone I’ve never met in person.
I’ve communicated with them quite a lot over WordPress. I’ve seen some pictures of them, given that they’ve posted some on their blog. I feel like I have a connection with this person because of the conversations we’ve had over WordPress. Yet, I’ve never met them in person.
When I woke up and got to thinking about this dream, I initially wasn’t sure what to make of it. I honestly couldn’t tell you the context of the dream, I just know that they were there.
After thinking about this a little bit more, I realized that it is pretty significant.
Generally speaking, I believe that when certain people turn up in my dreams, it means that they’ve had an impact on my life in some way. I don’t believe that every single aspect of a dream is symbolic, but I do believe that dreams can have personal meaning in them. I don’t claim to know anything about dreams; however, in my experience, when someone shows up in a dream of mine, I’ve found it means that they’ve had some sort of influence on my life. Sometimes, I don’t realize that influence until I look back on the dream. That was certainly the case with last night’s dream.
This dream, then, goes to show how much of an impact the blogging community has had on me.
That’s pretty amazing, I think.
In the last couple days, I’ve been a little disheartened by the posts I’ve been publishing. Even though they’ve gotten reasonably good feedback from fellow bloggers, I just haven’t felt personally satisfied by them. It doesn’t matter how many “likes” or positive comments a post gets–if I don’t feel good about it, I begin to wonder if it was worth my time to even publish it. Because I really, truly do write for myself. That’s not to say I don’t love receiving feedback–because I do. It is very meaningful and encouraging. However, it is also extremely important that I feel good about the work I’m putting out there.
This mere fact that another blogger showed up in my dream last night–someone I’ve never met in person, someone I may never meet in person (though it would be so amazing to meet some of my fellow bloggers in person one day, that’s for sure)–was encouraging. I woke up feeling the need to write something, something that I could be proud of.
This theme of balance is showing up everywhere in my life. I’m still struggling with finding a balance in blogging–a balance between writing for myself and thriving on the support of this WordPress community. I love the support I’ve been getting from fellow bloggers, but that isn’t enough for me. I also need to make sure I’m putting out work that I’m proud of.
I’ve felt this strong need to blog, which is why I’ve been posting pretty much everyday. Maybe, though, posting everyday isn’t what is best for me–especially since I’m not satisfied with the posts I’ve been putting out. Maybe on the days I don’t necessarily feel inspired to write, I can concentrate on reading and commenting on the work of other bloggers.
I just can’t keep myself away from WordPress. It has had such a positive influence on my life since I started becoming an active member of the community. However, there is more than one way to participate here. Writing new posts for my blog is only one of those ways. If I can take anything away from this blogger showing up in my dream, I think that’s it. They have been supportive of my work, but I also love their blog and find it so inspiring and wonderful.
I love that they support me, but I also want to support them.